Movies

So last night we watched a movie with Tom Selleck in it and then I saw him again later on a talk show. I just kept thinking of you, Grandma, and how you always liked him! Him and John Wayne. I miss you.

Thinking of you

Happy Birthday Grandma!!! Hope you are having a great one in heaven with Jesus. I wish I was there.

missing grandma

Lately I've been missing Grandma. I was walking in town down a street with pretty houses and there was a cute little blue house that I knew she would love because well, it's blue. It just looked like her. And I had this sudden compulsion to go and knock on the door and get a wonderful snugly hug from my grandma and have her ask all about how I'm doing. Can't wait til I get to heaven and can get one of those hugs.

Grandma and the babies

We were talking the other day about the baby that went to heaven last week. My grandma always loved to hear when mom had a lady in labor so she could pray for her and the baby. She loved seeing babies and holding them, singing to them along with a small lecture to the mommy's on how to take care of themselves. She worried about that as she had some horrible birth experiences.

We were thinking of Grandma in heaven sitting in the heavenly nursery and singing Beautiful to all the babies up in heaven and what a wonderful thought that was. She is praising Jesus and taking care those babies that she is strong enough to hold up there!

We are so much like you...

Even if we do not want to be! I was sitting and thinking about this last night, how the things that drove us all crazy are going to be the same things we will be doing to our children and grandchildren!

We learned from you how to be stubborn and brave. I hope that we can take these traits and make them into positive ones as we grow old!

Little Peanut

I don't know if anyone looks at this blog anymore, but I check it about once a week. Grandma has been on my mind and heart so much lately. I think it's partially because I just had a baby and she loved babies so much that I know she would be holding him and helping as much as she could. She always called them her little peanuts. I never really thought I would remember something like that, but recently I started calling Gideon my little peanut and the memories came flooding back. Now it's such a special nickname to someday explain to him that Grandma Mary would have called him if he had the blessing of her in his life. It still makes me cry, but I will always sing "Beautiful" to him and him and Dayton will always know who Grandma Mary was and how special she will always be! She will always be a part of me and will always be apart of "my little peanuts" lives through stories, nicknames, and just the beautiful legacy she's left behind.
I love you so much, Grandma...in no way have you been forgotten, your memory lives on in our hearts!

Dear Grandma

I've just been thinking about you alot lately....I miss you. I know you are having a great time in heaven but sometimes I just want you back. It still doesn't seem real that you are not here. I don't want to forget anything about you. I don't want Eric to forget you. The other day he asked me to sing Beautiful and as I sang it I could here your wonderful voice singing along with me.
I was watching a show tonight about this Italian girl who had her Italian grandam with her. Her grandma kept trying to feed all the people around her breakfast and it just reminded me of you, always making sure everyone was taken care of and most of all, fed:-)

I'm so proud to be your grandaughter and be related to such a wonderful, strong women with such a kind, caring heart.

I love you
Moriah

Happy Mother's day

I know Grandma isn't here but I wanted to wish her a Happy Mother's day anyway. I miss you Grandma and wish you were here to spend today with us! Happy MOther's day!You were a wonderful mother to all!

Still Missing You

I don't know if anyone reads this anymore, but I check it all the time. I love looking at pictures of Grandma and remembering all the amazing things about her. I've been having lots of dreams about her lately...she's always in her 60's for some reason. =) I guess she makes sure that she's still young, even in my dreams. I don't know if this sounds crazy, but I truly believe she can and does watch over us in different ways. The other night I was sleeping and heard her voice...then I woke up and felt like she was hugging me. For a split second I had forgotten that she's gone, and it was so nice to feel her hugs again. I think about her everyday and I am missing her so much. I am happy for her that I didn't get my way because I know she's in a better place, but I wish I could've held on just a little longer. I think about Dayton and this new little baby in my belly and my heart breaks when I think of them not even knowing who this wonderful Grandma was. I won't get to hear her rock my little newborn to sleep singing "beautiful". It's still so hard to digest. She'd be so mad that I'm allergic to pasta! I'm such a bad italian!
So anyway, for those of you who do read this...I'm sorry for making you cry! I just needed to get this all out.
Grandma, I love you so much and I'm so thankful to have had you in my life! You will always be a part of me and please continue to haunt me. =) Dreams of you give me peace and make me remember all the good times we've had.

Mothers day is coming

Yesterday I was thinking about mothers day. I've never had a mothers day without my mother. I've heard that all the 1st holidays is hard.
I was driving down to Kalispell one day, the rest of the car was sleeping and I was singing. I just started singing all the songs I could think of. Many of the scripture songs I grew up on. I like to keep them in my memory. Then I started singing beautiful. It's bad to cry and drive in the same time! That will always be a hard song to sing now, without crying.